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May 28, 2010 by Mariel

How Death Changed my Perspective (she: Ashley)

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I’m a wife and a mom first. I am also a musician. I play the keyboard and sing back up for country singer Charley Jenkins as well as compose my own music.
I thought I wanted to be a High School English teacher, but student teaching changed my mind, so I opted for B.A. in English Literature. Most people say there’s nothing you can do with that degree, but I can carry on a great discussion at a book club with the best of them (or at least BS my way through one)! I’m so thrilled that I was asked to write a post on a blog that inspires me every day!
On June 27, 2004, when I had been married less than 2 years, my first husband, Wyatt Rogers, was in a fatal helicopter crash. Among the thousands of thoughts that chaotically crashed through my mind the day the cops knocked on my door to deliver the news, I remember saying out loud, “I wish I would have respected him more. . . I wish I would have cooked for him more. . . I wish I wouldn’t have been so selfish. . . I wish we would have had more sex. . .”
The death of a loved one has a way of changing our perspective. My second marriage is much different from my first. Although I still have far too many flaws to count, Wyatt’s death helped me reevaluate marriage and made me a better wife.
MAKING YOUR HUSBAND A PRIORITY
“As a man, I can tell you our needs are simple. We want to be fed, we want our kids mothered, and we want lovin’.” -Quoted by Vince, From Dr. Laura Schlessinger’s “The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands“
I can’t recommend this book highly enough. Many women are immediately turned off by the title when their feminist instinct kicks in, but you can still be a strong, independent woman and take care of your man. This book changed my life, and I could write an entire blog post about it, but instead, why don’t you just read it and thank me later!
There were some regrets I had when Wyatt died. We hear the cliche to live every day as if it were our last, but I think it’s more important to treat others as if it were THEIR last day. I think it is especially important to treat our husbands this way because you never know when it will be, you don’t want to have regrets, and they deserve it:

Cooking:

 I put this first because this is what I have the hardest time with. I don’t like to cook, and I’m a horrible cook. I cop out a lot and often choose the easiest meals, and we eat out more than we should. This year, I made a New Year’s Resolution to cook more. I actually make this resolution EVERY year. Despite my shortcomings in this area, my husband knows that I am trying. We try to sit down at the table for our meals, turn the TV off, and discuss our day. It sounds so simple, but to be honest with you, meals like this were few and far between in my first marriage. A couple weeks before Wyatt’s accident, his mother claimed that he was “so skinny!” and asked, “Is he even eating?” She obviously didn’t mean any offense to me and was clearly more concerned about his overall health, but after that, I swore I would never get to the point in a marriage where my mother-in-law voiced her concerns about her son not eating!

Picking your battles and forgiveness:

My 22nd birthday was 2 weeks before Wyatt passed away. He was on his way home from being out-of-state. When he called to let me know he was boarding his plane, he forgot to mention anything about it being my birthday. Ooh, I let him have it! As soon as I picked him up at the airport that night, he gave me my gift and wished me a happy birthday. That WAS NOT enough for me. He needed to know how upset I was that I was alone on my birthday and he didn’t even have the courtesy to say anything about it over the phone. I ignored him the rest of the night and most of the next day. After he passed away, I found out that he spent hours searching for the “perfect gift” while out of town and was so excited to give it to me. It broke my heart.

Another book I love and refer to often is “The Seven Principles for Making Marriage Work” by John M. Gottman. Gottman claims there are two types of marital conflict: Those that can be resolved and those that are perpetual, which means they will always be a part of your lives. Gottman states, “The basis for coping effectively with either kind of problem is the same: communicating basic acceptance of your partner’s personality. . . I have learned that in all arguments, both solvable and perpetual, no one is ever right.” I think of this principle often, and more times than not, I realize there is usually no concrete resolution. I usually end up apologizing for unwarranted behavior and moving on, but most importantly, I DO NOT HOLD A GRUDGE. It’s not always easy, but when it’s over, it’s over.

Guy Time:

When your husband tells you he’s going golfing or fishing with the guys, it does not mean he doesn’t want to be with you! Don’t pout or feel sorry for yourself when your husband needs some “guy time.” We all need our Girls Nights Out, too, so offer your husband the same courtesy. There is obviously a fine line, which only you and your husband can draw, between shirking responsibility at home at just needing to get out and be with the boys. Just as it is healthy for you to have your own hobbies and interests, your husband needs his as well, and most likely, you were aware of most of them before you married. Don’t try to change or control him, and don’t make him feel guilty. When your husband gets his time away, he will come back a better man.

Sex:

THE BIGGEST CHANGE I MADE! During my first marriage, I often used intimacy as a weapon or viewed it as an obligation or chore. It often made being intimate miserable for both of us. I am happy to tell you now that I have changed my perspective on sex and I REALLY enjoy getting busy with my husband! Whenever my husband hints or even just throws subtlety out the window, I don’t reject him. I’m serious. And I even initiate it quite often as well. Sure, there are times when I’m not in the mood, but I’ve learned that if I take care of my husband’s needs, he’ll take care of mine. I get in the mood pretty easily once we’ve initiated our fun. . . not to mention it’s great exercise and has many other health benefits!
Here’s a fun fact for you: Having sex produces testosterone, which increases your sex drive. Therefore, the more you do it, the more you’ll WANT to do it. Seriously, try it! For my husband and me, sex is not a touchy subject that causes contention in our home like it sometimes was during my first marriage. The only difference is MY ATTITUDE toward it. I promise that you’ll miss it once it’s gone!
Most importantly, let your husband know every single day how much you appreciate him and how wonderful he is. Have as much fun as you possibly can with each other, and never leave or get off the phone without saying, “I love you.”
TALKING ABOUT THE HARD THINGS
At 22, I never thought I would have to discuss these important things with my husband, so we didn’t talk about most of them. I wish we would have, so I hope you’ll take some time to discuss them with your spouse.

Life Insurance:

 Due to Wyatt’s potentially dangerous career as a helicopter pilot, we decided to get life insurance in May, 2004. He passed away one month later. I consider myself absolutely blessed that we had life insurance because not only was I able to pay off all our debt, funeral and gravesite costs are not inexpensive. I didn’t have any children with Wyatt, but if you have children, life insurance, even a small amount, should be considered a priority for your family.

Funeral/Gravesite arrangements:

Talk about your own funeral arrangements regardless of how young you are. Who will speak? Is there a particular song your spouse wants sung? Does your spouse want to be cremated? If not, where does your spouse want to be buried? Will you get a joint headstone? What will be on the headstone? What type of casket will you get? Will it be an open or closed casket wake/viewing (obviously, some circumstances will not permit an open casket)?Are there particular pictures you’d like on the program, headstone, at the wake, etc?

Creating a Will/Discussing Belongings and Assets:

If you have children and/or assets, create a Will and start your estate planning. I work part-time for Kesler & Rust Law Firm in Salt Lake City, Utah. If you need a great Estate Planning Attorney or would like to draft a Will, call (801) 532-8000.If you do not have any children or assets, at least discuss what to do with each of your belongings that are significant to you. Are there items your husband wants his mother, father, siblings, or friends to have?Are there journals of any sort? What will you do with those?
Living Will:
My current husband’s father passed away last year from a degenerative disease. Something that was very important to him was to always be able to live and breathe on his own without the assistance of machines, so he signed a Living Will. A Living Will is a legal document someone uses to make his or her wishes known regarding life-prolonging medical treatments. It’s a personal decision for everyone, so discuss it thoroughly.
Future Families:
 In my opinion, this is the hardest matter to discuss because it entails discussing moving on, which seems unnecessary when your husband is right in front of you and tangible.Although you never actually know how you will grieve or when you will decide to move on, at some point, you will. Even if you just discuss the fact that you want each other to be happy, at least say that much.Discuss any religious beliefs you have that might affect future marriages and families. If you have children, discuss the type of person your spouse would want to help you raise them.
If you happen to be someone or know someone that is grieving over any type of loss (whether it be death or divorce), I want to suggest a book that helped me manage my grief: “How to Survive the Loss of Love” by McWilliams, Bloomfield and Colgrove. This book is one among many that helped me, so if you’d like any other references, please ask!
~ Ashley
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  1. daer0n says

    May 28, 2010 at 1:20 pm

    I love this post, and I can relate to it in so many ways. The information that you are providing people here with is so valuable and so important. Many people if not all of us are oftentimes incapable or believe we are incapable of dealing with situations like these. The loss of a loved one is so difficult to deal with, and I have gone through that before.

    Reading how you say you used to ‘neglect’ your husband in so many different ways really hits the spot, as I am often like that with my husband, and many times I have questioned and asked myself if I would think differently if something like that (God forbids, losing him) happened to me, and I change my ways…but then my attitude comes back sometimes, and it becomes a “pull and push” where I have all these mixed feelings of entitlement or selfishness and I just don’t feel like he deserves something at that moment, but then I feel bad.

    I love my husband with all my heart and he means the world to me, and he is such a sweet person, which makes me feel bad for not wanting to cook for him sometimes, even though it happens rarely because I do love cooking for him. Or how sometimes I am not in the ‘mood’ and I don’t feel like having sex with him. Your post is very eye opening and I think I should come back here when I feel this way to read this to make me re-think my behavior, and appreciate everyone in my life ALL the time, – not just sometimes.

    I really appreciate your post, it is wonderful, loving, moving, eye opening helpful and brilliant. Thank you!

  2. The Double Dipped Life says

    May 28, 2010 at 1:54 pm

    This is a wonderful article! I think we too often find fault in the ones we are close to. We (or maybe just I) need to work harder to recognize and REMEMBER the good things that they do. Thank you for this reminder!

  3. Mariel says

    May 28, 2010 at 1:57 pm

    This is definitely one of those topics that is just easier to avoid. But, if there’s one thing I’ve learned in this life it is that we are fragile, we die, and we are not exempt from experiencing death in this life.

    This is a VERY inspiring post, a great reminder to be more thankful for our loved ones. I’m going to start trying harder to “step it up” for my husband and those I love…because they mean the world to me! Thank you!

  4. Andi Fitz says

    May 28, 2010 at 2:05 pm

    Hey Ashley this was such a good post! I’ve read The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands, but I think I need to read it again after reading this post. This post definitely inspired me to try harder to be a better wife and have a different perspective on things. I think I need to read this post once a week so I can keep the right perspective.

  5. katherine says

    May 28, 2010 at 2:56 pm

    great great post!! thanks for sharing such personal details with us! this really was so helpful!!

  6. M.O.T.B says

    May 28, 2010 at 3:08 pm

    I couldn’t agree more. Although I am in my second marriage, my first husband didn’t die, we divorced and I learned so much from losing someone in that way. I do not advocate divorce, however I have made the best of it and I know it has made me a better wife. Great post and I am sorry for your loss.

  7. Mrs. Incredible says

    May 28, 2010 at 3:43 pm

    What a great post! It really helps me realize the importance of showing our loved ones how much they mean to us while we are here. Thank you.

  8. Karen Sunday says

    May 28, 2010 at 3:50 pm

    Great post! I enjoyed reading it. Great insights!

  9. Alicia says

    May 28, 2010 at 6:10 pm

    This post is downright amazing. I linked up to it on my blog (http://inspiration.storyladyblog.com) -hope you don’t mind. I really appreciate your insights. Very well put!

  10. Donna says

    May 28, 2010 at 6:19 pm

    This was a great blog entry. I myself ‘walk through the valley of the shadow of death” at 37 but was fortunate to return home. It changed my life & I have never been the same. People are so afraid to face their own mortality ,but so was I until I did. Get these things in order people, its so important.

  11. Emilee says

    May 28, 2010 at 6:50 pm

    Thanks for the post! I’m grateful for the reminder. I’ll definitely try to do better. Thanks again!

  12. The Slack Family says

    May 28, 2010 at 6:51 pm

    This was an amazing post and I am so happy you talked about several subjects that never really get talked about. My husband has no idea I do this, but every time he walks out the door to go somewhere I look at him for a little longer than usual just to “take him in” in case it’s ever the last time I see him. Thank you for this post, I too have things I need to work on and this was a push in the right direction 😉

  13. Heather B says

    May 28, 2010 at 8:06 pm

    Thank you so much for this wonderful post! I need to work on a lot of these things.

  14. Amy Caroline says

    May 28, 2010 at 10:51 pm

    This is an amazing post that really touched my heart. It is a message that we all need to hear or at leats be reminded of.
    Thank you.

  15. Susan says

    May 29, 2010 at 3:27 am

    Well…can I ever relate. Although my former husband did not pass away after a massive stroke in Dec.’06…It was much like what you describe. Alot of what ifs…could-a should-a would-a’s too. And, honestly it would have easier for everyone, mostly Dean if he would has been able to pass on. He now lives in a group home with aging patients.
    But, so true that these experiences give us perspective that is not gained any other way. Hopefully, changes made for the better!

  16. Lindsay says

    May 29, 2010 at 4:22 pm

    I love this post. Such a great reminder to appreciate my husband and value every day with him. Thanks for all the specific ways I can enjoy him more.

  17. thehaucks says

    May 30, 2010 at 2:09 pm

    Awesome Post! I am so sorry for your loss but so amazed at your willingness to share the faults you found in yourself during your first marriage. I, too, love Dr. Laura’s book and think too many women dismiss it completely when those simple principles are the best way to keep a marriage happy. Thank you!

  18. Jessica says

    May 31, 2010 at 3:17 am

    My hubby asked me to read this book, and I grudgingly did. I LOVE it!! I actually give it to couples for wedding gifts now. Great post!

  19. Marilee says

    June 1, 2010 at 1:28 am

    Great post Ashley! You are very wise. I appreciate your insights. Thanks!

  20. Liz says

    June 1, 2010 at 4:44 am

    Thank you for this post Ashley! It is very insightful and makes me see that sometimes I slack in areas of my marriage that I shouldn’t.

  21. SarahAnne says

    June 2, 2010 at 4:17 am

    Thank you for sharing your story and insight. Thank you for the encouragement to plan ahead, just in case one of those things we don’t like to talk about happens, and for the great reminder to not take our families for granted.

  22. erin d. says

    July 7, 2010 at 4:49 am

    Great advice. Something we never want to think about, but, death is the one thing we all have in common, it will come to us all in one way or another. Thank you for your openness and honesty in discussing this topic.

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